As some of you many know I have been fasting for some time (for physical reasons) though I always enjoy the deeper spiritual connection that naturally comes. So I woke up one morning drank some water and had my quiet time. I then took out the email a friend had sent to me of verses and prayers to pray and speak over my body. I felt confident that this was a mere trial and would soon pass with no lasting harm to my body. It was a beautiful prayer time, where I really sensed the power and presence of my heavenly DAD.
In fact my prayer time didn't end until I was interrupted by the kids who had arrived for school. So we started school, however during their math time (I am not needed as they have videos to teach that subject) I decided to grab my iPod, tennis and go pay some bills, Knowing I had enough in the account to pay the two due that week. It was a cool morning so I put a light sweatshirt on and headed off to the place to pay bills. Along the way I listened to the Joyce Meyer message about not doubting or giving into fear.
As I walked I began to notice the strange symptoms I have been experiencing for the past few months were getting worse. Trust in God I reminded myself and continued on my way. I got to the place to pay bills, showed the lady the bills I needed to pay and she went into some detail why I could not pay them? She soon passed my understanding of the language and I left a bit confused….I could not pay my bills….. On the way home I ran into my friend, (the mother of the kids I teach). Before I could tell her about the unprofitable trip to the bill paying place she told me how they had been looking for me, it seems the water guy came to read my meter discovered that the water had no been paid in this house since 2007 and decided to shut the water off. My friend was in a panic over the matter so I became really calm. “Don't worry, we will work it out” I was thinking of my prayer time that morning, of the promise God had given before this trip about the flour and oil not running low, how I had already seen that to be true. and lastly reminded my friend that up until 4 months ago this house stood empty, so the water cant be that bad.
A few hours later the electric man came by with the same story, the electricity was to be shut off. My friends started calling the landlord for me, demanding he take care of this (We have been asking him for the water and electric bill all along but it was never a pressing need for him. I had a peace about the finances……
All the while the symptoms my body is going through was getting worse, embarrassingly so. I suppose I had better explain for those reading this whom I did not email some weeks ago to ask for prayer. I have been having my period for almost 3 months now. Some days are light, most are medium to heavy. This day was ridiculously heavy, in fact not just was I loosing blood but large fist size clots. When I had put the symptoms into Web MD I got terms like cancer, tumors, and cysts….thus I started a 21 day fast, knowing that fasting often allows our bodies to detox, cleanse and heal.
So the landlord found out the electric bill for us (the water will have to come next month as we needed to install a meter) I pulled nearly 400 US out of the account to pay the bills, leaving only a hundred in there….that bothered me…..my peace began to waiver. I began to worry, what will I do about the water bill next month, the diesel fuel I need to for my hot water heater and the firewood I have to buy?
Then out of curiosity I got online to find out about those large clumps I'm passing. The words I read threw me into a full born panic. they may not be blood but the actual wall of my uterus? I need that, I want to have kids one day!! Peace went out the window. I cried, pleaded with God, worried and emailed some friends back home….I was terrified.
One of the calls home I made was to Sarah. I told her in detail all that was happening. she prayed for me, and then asked me about words Dad has spoken to me about my future, about missions, teaching in D-schools, Alaska, CWAM, marriage, having children, homeschooling them. Have you fulfilled those purposes yet? So far all of them are somewhere in the future. So I cant loose my uterus to cancer and still have children. There is a lot God wants me to do with my life…that is no where near happening yet. She also told me her first impressions were to tell me to add calcium back into my diet. True I haven't had much, not just because of the fast but I dislike the taste of the milk and cheese here. So I bought some Ayran (drinkable yogurt)
And you know what a few ounces of Ayran a day keeps the bleeding down and the clots away! I pulled out a large some, but the electric bill turned out to be lower then we anticipated. We went to the bill paying place and got the bills paid….I still don't know why it didn't work when I went but it is done for now. I went to the pharmacy and bought some vitamins and minerals that promote healing and I still pray and speak truth over my symptoms, trusting God for healing.
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